It was a truly tragic event, the fire that happened at Harbin. As you all may know, Harbin Hot Spring, where I have been teaching for over 25 years, was completely destroyed by the Valley fire on 12th of September.
I had just returned to California and was getting myself ready to teach Shiatsu for three weeks which was planned to begin on the 13th of September. I was shocked to the core of my being and in total disbelief, not only for the Harbin as a place, rather most of all for the people and all the “Mothers” children who lived and worked there for so many years. Basically, they lost everything on many levels, not just materialistically.
I decided to return to Maui to grieve, recuperate and, maybe more importantly, to reorganize my personal plans for the future. Now I have had some time to rethink my “dream” and also begin to reorient my life. It was for me a critical moment, to rethink about what had just happened, and how this fire would affect and transform my life.
My primary work of teaching Shiatsu at Harbin has disappeared maybe for years to come. Harbin was in many ways like my beloved parents or my real home for my teaching career. Harbin has been so supportive of me and my teaching career, that I can honestly say that I grew up in and with Harbin. My appreciation to Harbin is beyond any words I could possibly express yet I do believe Harbin will be back with more beauty and hope principally as a higher consciousness community, yet it will never be the same.
Now we must start the process of letting go even though losing so much is a difficult process. I know now this is the time to see my dream and why am I here on this earth– what is my mission — without Harbin, at least temporarily. Yes it is the time to find myself.
Last year, when I turned 60, I began questioning what I really wanted to teach with the rest of my life — the last cycle of my teaching career. It was remarkable for me, but I began questioning continuing to teach pure Shiatsu for both land and water. I have been teaching Shiatsu now for many years and without a doubt that is the foundation of my teaching career and flows in my blood. Yet, as I have shared with many of my students our path is to be discovered in our true essence and creativity. This principal has guided me to the creative energy of sexuality: “Tantra”.
Tantra has so many different meanings and interpretations, yet I truly believe that instead of teaching techniques of Shiatsu and helping others becoming good shiatsu therapists, I want to teach to the heart of a “lover.” I want to teach love and awaken the essence of “who we are” – self discovery and growth based on the 5 element theory. In fact, “To be the best lover, that is the true Shiatsu heart”.
Asami and I started teaching Tantra in Japan just last year, in the country of my birth and the land of my ancestors, and then this tragedy happened. After my initial shock, I began feeling my shiatsu bridge, which is directly connected to Harbin, had been burned, and I now needed to refocus on my path and direction.
Without any doubt Shiatsu will always be a part of my path, yet I now feel it is the time to rethink how I can contribute to my country of birth and my ancestors, incorporating what I have learned in the USA, especially at Harbin.
Fire can burn down everything from our past, but it also creates a new abundance of earth, from the ashes. Whether we like it or not, because of the fire, we need to let go of the past completely and as quickly as possible.Grief and sorrow is a transitional phase of new preparation and not a phase that should be prolonged.
The power of earth is “unconditional love” nurturing everything and especially that which we plant. It is also the energy of “transformation” like the phoenix birthing from the ash (earth).
The real important point is that we need to believe. We are the phoenix, and we need to have dream seeds right now. We can transform from the past and transcend into the future and still live now. The earth does not judge anything, whatever we plant, the earth knows how to nurture and grow unconditionally. Yes, it is important to grief, it helps with letting go of the past, and makes rebirth even more special and beautiful — whatever you dream may be, that is the seed, plant it.
Yes, your dream is the seed of the phoenix
out of which the future is woven,
and I believe we are the phoenix
who rises from the ashes.
My love and appreciation to you all,